Saturday, February 15: It's been drizzling all day and there's a fuck'n' gale blowing everything everywhere. I spent part of the day cleaning and oiling my gear riding gear, then went for a ride around 4:00. I dubbed songs off a tape I wanted because it is very old and about to go completely bust. Im in the caravan now, its 10:00 and I'm listening to my "Grease" tape and smoking. Darrens with me, keeping quiet which is a bonus. Dad went for a ride too.

Friday, February 14: Guess what!!? I PASSED my learners license. It feels wonderful. I went in a mess of nerves and came out a nearly free "woman". I bought a bridle today and Dad bought a western saddle to my surprise, which is wonderful. Darren and I just got back from watching a movie at Johnsons*. I bought a packet of smokes today after "borrowing" two tailors off Nana. It is 11:50, and I need some sleep.

*We didn't have TV growing up so my brother and I used to go over to our neighbours occasionally in the evenings to watch movies we knew were on.

Thursday, February 13: I am fanatically doing study for my second attempt at my learners license tomorrow. I am feeling more confident and do hope to pass. I was nearly busted for smoking at school today. Its a risky business but have been doing it every day for a year now and have survived so far. I can't go without my smokes. Darren is trying to give up on Dads request but it isn't working.

Wednesday, February 12: Just an ordinary day at school. I am feeling a little tired. I've been riding Beau everyday now which is good for both of us. I am going to start attending the small pony-club up the road which is on every Tuesday evening. I went once before for a while but Beau became lame so I didn't get round to returning.

Tuesday, February 11: I haven't seen Sarah or Kim whatsoever so far except Sarah on the bus. She's ignoring me but I don't know why. I aren't too worried. The news didn't spread about me and Clark. I am pleased. One can easily be labelled a slut. Hanging around with Emma is really great. She has many good friends. I hope Emma and I become closer. She's a wonderful person.

Monday, February 10: I dropped my Art option today. I am extremely pleased with all my teachers except Mr Jones, my Geo* teacher. Everyone flunks with him. I am going to work hard this year with S.C 'n' all.

*Geography. Also, S.C is School Certificate. The exams we sit in what was called 5th Form when I went to school. I believe its "Year 11" nowadays.

Sunday, February 9: With Mum gone now we are trying to adjust to the routne of life again. It was horrible seeing her go and I cried a lot. More than anyone. I went riding on Beau and just got back.

Saturday, February 8: Im sitting here having a smoke. Mum's inside taking up the hem of the skirt she bought me. She's leaving at 2:00 today. We'll miss her.